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magicl book [another enchanting tale from matches' by canine-rein magicl book [another enchanting tale from matches' by canine-rein

3rd grade journal]

this is cute and nice and based off of my obsession with dragon tales as a kid,
but when i was scanning this and reading it,
i got a little sad
because i remember moving to a different school and a different town when i was little
and not having any friends.
and i'd write all these little stories alone in class and at recess.  and going through them,
i realize that all of the characters are animals and creatures that befriend me instantly.  no people.
and i remember how no one really talked to me, 'the new kid, the short little kid with red hair and a weird voice'
and i remember little elementary me creating all of these fantasies.
why couldn't someone be my friend?
when i think about it more,
i remember than no one else had stories about them going off to fantastic worlds, with
all of their imaginary friends.
they all had stories of their real life friends,
playing games and going on vacations with them like they did in real life, too.
and i remember not having that,
and still not having that, because the friends i have now are all boys.

and i'm crying right now
for little third grade matches.
because i was so lonely
and that loneliness is kind of built into me now, scarred into me,
because i've had it for so long, they've been feeding it to me with all of this
and since i've had that cold loneliness for so long,
now that i finally have some good friends,
i still can't appreciate them like other people can
because there's a burning feeling
that they're just going to leave me too.
because everyone else has
ahhh why am i so sad
i'm nice,
i was nice then, too
why didn't anyone want to be my friend?
so i wouldn't have to make dragons take me to their world?
and kangaroos play video games with me?
and dinosaurs letting me ride them through some jungles?
while everyone else played with their friends

i'm so sad wow
excuse me while i go cry some more
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AquaRock Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
She doesn't want to be lonely, so her characters are her only homies, everyone needs real friends instead of some phonies, instead of nocturnal rainbows...
Sylveonxx Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013
Well bby, we do have one thing in common: we were both the outsiders in third grade
yeah, I was the newbie too. That was the first yeah I tried to take drawing seriously, because 
drawing was all I had for some time, characters and everything. It's why I make so many now, 
because they're gonna be my friends if no one else will.
I'll take you to your dragon world, I'll make you happy. 
Baby it makes me so sad to see you so upset over this 
This is so sweet and precious, it shows that you know, you're a kid at heart no matter what 
you're amazing in every way, you're kind, you're loving, and it's not your fault people can't see you for 
who you are ; ;
SwiftilySquirrel Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013
awww. ;_; Poor 3rd grade matches and you matches.

This thing you're doing makes me want to upload my 3rd grade history note book. Oh my gosh, some things in it are hilarious!
TerraSwolf Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ohh my gosh baby
this is so sad and sweet at the same time
if it makes you feel any better i didnt have many friends either until third grade
probably because i was weird as fuck and was in my fantasy world 95% of the time
but still
i can kind of understand ;;^;;
canine-rein Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
man we would've been the closest
TerraSwolf Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i used to have a person who i thought was my friend when i was in pre-k
when i got to go on the big kid playground the first thing i did was go on the glider
i slammed into her and made her cry and was banned from the big kid playground
in other words i was not a child you would want as a friend ||D
canine-rein Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
wow haha

but wow hahah have i told you the story
of the time i made a kid bite his tongue off in preschool?
TerraSwolf Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i was traumatized for life man
that was fucked up
that fucked me up

holy shit man no tell me :eyes:
canine-rein Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist

preschool, right?  i think it's like the first week or so
me and my new buddy lil cameron keep rocking back in out little plastic chairs.
the teacher tells us to stop "your chair will tip over!", then goes on and keeps teaching.
i look over at him with a smug-ass little grin and nod and whisper,
"keep rocking hahaha it's so fun"
and i shit you not
he rocked and we laughed until he fell and, mid-laugh, chomps his fucking tongue off.
the teacher screamed and there was so much blood
like, buckets worth
and he's screaming
and i'm just sitting there with almost no reaction??
and he was rushed off somewhere
and we never saw lil cameron again.
TerraSwolf Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh my gosh you are like one of those devil children from some horror movie
that is funnier than it should be oh my gosh
canine-rein Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2013  Student Digital Artist
ahahhah ikr
it was p interesting
ahahha ikr lol
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